For Exes

Drowning In Style

Flashing lights and sounds that are tight
this place is just a pig stye but the fuckers will come
to spend their cash on drugs and booze
so they can get destroyed and feel as if there's nothing to loose.
In their expensive ties and dresses
which will soon be filled up with their own waste
Live fast, die young
is the mindset of all the rats
and the king is sitting in the corner about to die
with a bottle and a girl already dead.
Youth is dying, lets just grow up already, everything is better that way
lets stay away from them
You can't judge our lives when yours is filled with alcohol, drugs and fake happiness
you can't dance your troubles away, they're waiting by the bar waiting for you to
finish your euphoria.
Follow you home and hover over you
no escape from this.
Atleast I died pretty

Lies
Woooooahhhhhhhhh Ive got someone I want you to hear
young, fresh and everything you aren't
but you can be with acouple more bucks.
You can relate you can feel how they feel
just keep paying for their cars and luxuries
What happened to it, so strong and had intergrity
now thats down the drain along with what you've released
I guess you don't care anymore
just wanting what the kids will dance and fuck to
more money in your fat pocket.
Nothing is sacred anymore.

Wanderlust

For the past year or so I've had the definate urge to get up and just leave. I have constant wanderlust, everywhere I go, I just want to keep on going until I reach the edge of something. I've always had this feeling, but the past year it has been more and more pulling and as I see all my friends go off to some universities in other places, I can't help but feel lonely. Sure all my other friends are staying right here in Ottawa, but now I feel like I should be one of those who are leaving. Im going to Carleton this fall and I'm a wee bit excited but its not my main choice. I want to go back to Umeå. For me Umeå is my ideal place, no big city assholes to deal with, no skyscrapers that break the sky and let it bleed and of course its punk rock city.

I need to feel the midnight sun on my face and the dark winters which always follow. Since first laying my eyes on "white birch city" I've loved it. Sure Ottawa is a fun place, but Ive been here to long and I don't want to stay for another 4 years in the same place, going to the same districts, I just don't like that at all. You might be thinking "well once you reach Umeå, you'll have the same feelings again." I might agree with that, but for me its where I really want to be. I hate the constant hustle and bustle of the big cities, I hate skyscrapers (a major reason why I don't want to go to New York City) I just want a place where I can see true beauty and not man-made eyesores which block the beauty by replacing it with metal covered boxes. Ill do one year at Carleton and see how I feel about it, but right now I feel as if I should get out my bag stuff it fill of my Isis and Mastodon cds, all my Will Ferrell movies and get my bike and ride it to the airport and just board the next one to Stockholm. Yea thats a good plan.


-Nic

Fuck

So last night I was alone in my house. I got back from the cottage a day earlier to go to a "going away party" for those leaving. Of course the whole thing was a massive flop and barely anyone showed. So I got home at 12ish turned on tv to Much Music playing Gallow's song "In a Belly of a Shark". Needless to say I stoked, mainly because Much Music has been in a major downward spiral for the longest time (started when they recognized the Jonas Brothers as musicians.) So Im rocking out to it then I noticed they bleeped out the line "so fucking cold, so fucking dark". I know all about censorship, but c'mon at 12 you can unbleep it, because no 5 year old is going to be in a room where the song is playing and suddenly be "hurt" by it. Kind of annoyed me that once the song was done the next song up was that song by Flo'rida, no idea what its called but I know its about blowjobs. Now why not censor that out? I think a song about blowjobs would have a more psychological effect on someone that just the word fuck. Why is Gallows reduced to being played at 12 while this "blowjob" of a song is played basically 24/7. I have no problems with blowjobs, infact they're great when you get them but seriously, we have all these fucking adult professionals freaking out about one song that says fuck a couple of times when another song about blowjobs hardly causes a stir. Another example you be that one song by Lady Gaga, now I admitt she's hot but can't write for shit. "I wanna take a ride on your disco stick". Someone I knew sang that infront of me, I didn't know whether or not she was hitting on me, thankfully she wasn't. I realize these musicians are popular but its always the real musicians, stuck up asshole parents go after i.e. Slayer. Lets destroy pointless censorship and say a loud fuck you to the censors.

Lazy Summer

Man, I haven't written in this in so long, I guess nothing seems to have been annoying me for awhile, so no pointless banter for you to be forced to sit through. I'm tired as shit, alone in my house for the first time in 5 months and scared shitless (I shouldn't have watched Ghost Hunters) I'm also fairly drunk and I felt compelled to do this to explain my absense but, Im not sure if you truly care, so I'll just say these two things: SUMMMMMMERRR AT COTTAGGGGGEEE tomorrow. 2 weeks. fun. fun. fun. And finally one last note as I hear the sweet sound of Chuck Ragan's voice, Gabs is the funniest drunk ever.

-Nic