Going back to childhood.

Man, I have not been gone out and seen anyone for about a week and goddamn am I lonely. Ive definatly felt the effects of this separation in what Ive been doing lately, sleeping in until 12 or 1 not going to bed until 2 or 3 am. Not being able to remember any of my dreams and basically just my mind melting. Fuck. I need stimulation, well next couple of weeks should get better since I applied to HMV and hopefully get the job. Then maybe my brain will begin to function properly again. I am feeling like my whole week is just a Sunn 0))) song, just keeps going and going and eventually picks up before falling down again. (Ive got no problem with Sunn 0))) just that's a majority of their songs.) I miss everyone, I'm kinda starting to regret taking a year off, maybe it'll get better in the coming months. Ive become so lonely I think I'm starting to wish I was a kid again, back in grade 5. This started When I rediscovered my old "jam" New Radicals - You Only Get What You Give. Man I would listen to this song constantly while getting ready for school in the morning, I would even miss my mom telling me to start walking up the school and I be jamming in my pajamas to this. Those were fun times.



also been listening to Opeth a lot more, holy fuck "Ghost of Peridition" is a such a fantastic piece of music.

-Nic

Contenders.

Remember those days where we would sit and wait
by the coke machines in the cafeteria
and just talk about what we want and what we are going to do
insults, jokes and others things we laughed about.
I'm sorry I never said what I wanted to
I left you drifting in the sea
reaching for someone that wasn't me.
I could have done something or said how I felt
but I didn't
I just Im the one who drowned.

Now here we are on your porch
gazing into the starlit sky
questioning our choices
cursing off the places we had to be just to stay in the moment
where we were finally free
and now you had to leave
I just cracked and broke
and sank like a stone.
But I'm only a bus ride away.